TiLt

hello..its moi again..i hav NO IDEA y i'm writin seein da fact dat practically noone is readin ma blog probably cause its a place where i can jus write and noone would really noe or read it n yet it makes me feel very relieved dat at least someone/thin is willing to read/store(call it wateva u want) ma thoughts without ever bein afraid of it criticisin me..
Tons of stuff happened since da last time i blogged..firstly..i've been made president of da interact club..i'm a confirmed boardmember of da prefect of wms now(sounds kinda cocky but hey its ma blog) n most probably will be da next vice capitan..i still feel very DMKLFHAHEW'POIBQM OP4BN W(if ya noe wat i mean)..n there r thins still very much empty in me..deres an extremely empty void in me dat i cant seem to fill..n as time progresses i feel it eatin me alive slowly n tryin to stop it makes it wrose..mayb its cause of dat special some1 dat every1 seems to hav dat i DONT..n MAYB its cause of dese positions of responsibility i hold that burden me..probably its cause ma parents r arguin again n even more nowadays..mostly bout ma future where i should studt etc. n it makes me feel guilty..basically life at da moment is jus fucked up..but hey..u noe wat dey say..da show must go on..so come monday i'll be da fake perky person again usin da lack of sleep as an excuse to my shitty feelin..n da best thin of it all..no1 will noe(i stopped tellin maself dat some1 i noe would jus stumble on dis blog a LONG LONG LONG time ago)

ciao,
tubster
ps.luckily still remember dis site..saves me da trouble of makin a new one=P

LIFE

hey peps..i suppose i should blog since i went through all da trouble of makin dis site n not leave it 2 rot in cyber space..right..ma life is fine..not terribly good but i'm still livin eh..i jus got elected as a prefect couple of days ago..i'm da president of da interact club..i'm da coordinator(wth lynn) of da prefect farewell thin..yet...i feel sad..i feel weird..i feel i don deserve dis...i noe wat ppl say..he's soo lucky..candidate for da prefects board..president of da most popular club in wms..i tink dey should jus shut up...i envy ppl who can jus go on wth dere life n jus worry bout hw..or teachers..i ask maself all da time..wats da point..i mean if its 4 ur testi den its not worth it..cause no1 givs a shit wat u were in secondary skool wen u work..right??..i don get a kick out of leadin ppl..i don really like bein supperior 2 ppl..i don really like organisin stuff..yet i'm doin it..last week dey announced da prefects list..some ppl got scraped..funny thin is..i tink ppl who deserved it didn't get it n ppl who don deserve it got it..i guess life IS weird..i oso tink peter a bytch..how can u leave out xilin's name den appologise later..moron..i jus tink life is weird n messed up..but hey..2molo is always a new day eh..n thanks bee 4 helpin me out wth ma blogspot..ur da best!!!!!!!
love n kisses frm,
thomas